Nighttime sounds

As twilight yields to darkness and shadows extend to cover the land, this sound echoes through our home at night.

Perhaps an urban specter makes its presence known? Or an escaped reptile wanders through the alleyway, proclaiming its hunger? Has a tyrannosaurus rex risen from the depths of the nearby lake and will now wreak havoc upon an unsuspecting inner suburb?

No. My wife recorded my snoring.

Yeah, I had a sleep study a few years ago that said I don’t have sleep apnea, but I think I might need to see a doctor again.

Relief

I haven’t been to a Bible meeting in a few weeks until today. Largely, this stemmed from family obligations (pneumonia in the house, father-in-law’s heart attack) plus some problems at work. I felt bad about it, regardless, because I know I should be there and ‘not forsake the gathering of ourselves together’, as Hebrews 10 tells us.

Sometimes, when this happens, that guilt ferments naturally into anxiety. Today I felt shaky, and for a moment I didn’t want to go because I felt bad about not having gone. (Writing it out that way makes it sound even more irrational!)

I went, though, and I felt something odd. We’ve all had moments when we needed something physically. Maybe food, a trip to the bathroom, medication, or sleep. When we finally got it, we felt flooded with relief. That’s the only way to describe how I felt today. Once the opening prayer had finished and we got underway with a sermon on remaining spiritually awake, I felt that physical sensation of warmth and release, something far more than just emotional.

Maybe neurology has some explanation, and I can certainly find a number of theological ones as well (e.g. “the peace of God that excels all thought”). No matter what caused it, though, I really enjoyed the refreshment on all levels.

Next time I can remind myself of that and see what happens.

Novels versus short stories

In the preface to Burning Chrome, William Gibson writes that the relationship of short stories to science fiction is the same as that of the single to rock music: “the medium that defined the most perfect expressions” of a given art form.

Come to think of it, my favorite science fiction stories usually came in the form of short fiction, often no longer than a novella.

Does this mean that science fiction novels don’t really work? Or that they just aren’t worth the extra effort it takes to write them?

Meh. Overthinking this. Bring on November!

Prepping for Nanowrimo 2009

Definitely doing it this year. I’ve conned a few friends into participating as well so we can all support each other.

Last night, I listened to the final movement of Beethoven’s Fifth Symphony on my way home from dinner, and everything started clicking. The concept, the characters, their motivations…

More to come here.

She gets to like science too!

I never really paid much attention to gender education issues when I was younger. I am a middle-class white American male who did well in a more-or-less traditional educational environment: public school, test-driven, math and language centric, lots of memorization and analysis. Other than going to a science magnet school and no racial segregation, most of my education followed the same pattern as that of, say, the 1950s. Mostly, at any rate.

Then I had a daughter, and everything changed.

So today she starts in a new school in a new suburb. The teacher seems really sweet, the kids are friendly, everything looks great. This week they’re learning about the letter “D”, so the teacher assigns them things to bring on Friday that start with that letter. So far, so good…

…except that it’s “girls bring dolls and boys bring dinosaurs.“

What century do these people live in?

So girls stay home with the kids while boys get to go out in the world and do science? She can’t like dinosaurs? (For the record, dolls bore my girl to tears. She’d rather play with spaceships or work on her accent imitations.)

I told her to ask the teacher if she could bring a dinosaur instead. If she says no, I’ll go have a calm, friendly word with her. Discrimination? Don’t we have federal laws about this stuff?

When the revolution comes, the boards of education will be the first against the wall.

And if I hear anything like, “good girls must learn to cook and sew because math is hard,” I’m going to blow something up.

RAWR!

Getting going with writing

I really must force myself to dedicate time and attention to writing. “Thinking about writing” doesn’t actually get things done. But the time has to come from //somewhere//.

Until now, I’ve also struggled with the mindset. The sort of fiction I want to write has dark, complex, nuanced themes, but doing this while small children brighten my life has proved challenging. But the real challenge here might lie more in preventing interruptions.

So I need to set up an environment lending itself to focus and concentration. That might mean someplace outside the house: a quiet coffee shop or restaurant, for example.

Ideally, I would do this in the morning, but realistically this won’t happen (at least not consistently). Lunch could work as well: will my current laptop do that, or should I get a netbook? Will the small keyboard present less inconvenience than carrying the weight and bulk of a widescreen notebook computer?

Either way, I really have to start at least trying things. Even if they don’t work exactly, they’ll provide additional insights to help me figure out what //will//.

Four Things

Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. Math tutor
2. Construction laborer
3. Computer forensic investigator
4. Insurance file clerk

Four movies I’ve watched more than once:
1. The Princess Bride
2. Willow
3. Dune
4. Better Off Dead

Four places I have lived:
1. Dallas, TX
2. Richardson, TX
3. Garland, TX
4. Irving, TX

Four places I have been:
1. Caracas, Venezuela
2. Monterrey, Mexico
3. Monterey, CA
4. Marco Island, FL

Four Favorite drinks
1. Coffee (Ethiopian Yirgacheffe with heated milk and a dollop of honey)
2. Water
3. Dr Pepper
4. Tea

People who email me regularly:
1. Mary (my sister-in-law )
2. Ariel Preiss
3. Irving Police Dept
4. My boss

Four of your favorite foods:
1. Cold cereal
2. Tacos al carbon
3. Tostadas
4. Sweet potato pie

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. Monterrey, Mexico
2. Monterey, CA
3. New York, NY
4. Chicago, IL

Four things I am looking forward to this year:
1. 10th wedding anniversary
2. Vacation (a real one, not just visiting family)
3. EVE Online winter expansion (hoping for “walking in stations”)
4. Finally getting to play with those toys “for 3 and up” with Kevin

Four TV shows that I watch:
1. Wow Wow Wubbzy
2. Oswald
3. Ni Hao, Kai-lan
4. Spongebob Squarepants (I only watch TV with my kids, oddly)

25 Random things about me

1. I have a degree in math (statistics). It was supposed to be applied math instead of stats, but I wanted to avoid topology. Now I actually enjoy topology.

2. I love “nerdcore hiphop”. MC Chris and MC Lars rule me.

3. At one point in time, I really thought I wanted to be a sportswriter. Then I grew up.

4. Pretty sure that I have read every bit of science fiction Arthur C. Clarke ever wrote.

5. My first words to both of my children were, “{NAME}, I am your father!” The OR nurses gave me odd looks.

6. One of my college professors went on to join the Mexican president’s cabinet.

7. In fourth grade, my dad had to give me $10 when I proved to him that I could find a mistake in my social studies textbook (something about tundra, that’s all I really remember).

8. For years, until I was like in my mid-20s, I thought Bon Jovi was singing, “you give love b-badly”.

9. When I was a kid, I didn’t want to be an astronaut, I wanted to work in Mission Control. They looked cooler.

10. My first business trip was to Mexico City. Had a blast.

11. I have a beautiful singing voice unappreciated by the masses. And everyone else who’s ever heard it.

12. One side of my family is descended from the Hatfields. Yeah, those Hatfields.

13. I’ve never touched tobacco in my entire life.

14. People who think, “if you don’t support my party, you must support the other one” frustrate me.

15. My kids’ favorite lullaby as babies was “Yellow Submarine”. Or was it my favorite lullaby to sing to them? Who can tell?

16. Mom and Dad didn’t let us wear camouflage clothing when we were little because it looked military. I still hate it when my kids wear it, but I can’t really articulate a good reason for it.

17. Unix > Windows.

18. I listened to 1310 The Ticket (Dallas sports station) on Day 1 and was a P1 for years, then drifted away and now listen almost exclusively to NPR.

19. As a child, my favorite lunch was a peanut butter & grape (sometimes strawberry) sandwich on wheat bread, nacho cheese-flavored Doritos, Dr Pepper, and chocolate chip cookies.

20. One of my high school nicknames was “Teen Wolf”. “Catfish” was another.

21. I taught myself Spanish and now speak it fluently. I did pick up some of my wife’s accent from Monterrey, however, and have occasionally been mistaken as a native by other people actually from that city.

22. Axl Rose has the greatest rock singing voice of the last quarter century, IMNSHO.

23. TOTALLY not an animal person.

24. If I could quit and start a new career without having to worry about providing for my wife and children, I’d go back and do a Ph.D. The qualifier I just added makes that really, really unlikely, though.

25. I tear off the edges of my fingernails when I’m momentarily bored or just need to do something with my hands. And I always need to do something with my hands.

Continuing health improvements

As an update to last month, I wanted to note that at this point I have lost fifteen (15!) pounds. I exercise regularly and have changed what I eat. My cholesterol is down to 182 (HDL 38, LDL 123), and my triglycerides are at 105.

I’m feeling better, wearing clothes I haven’t been able to wear in a while, and seeing myself differently. The death of a dear family friend at the age of 49 from a heart attack on New Year’s Eve has affected me in a number of ways, and this includes cementing my motivation to counteract the effect of my sedentary job by exercising regularly.

Weight loss kicked off

It started when I had my life insurance medical exam in November and came in eight pounds heavier than I expected (which was already heavier than I need).

Then, a few weeks ago, the 47-year-old father of a friend had a heart attack and ended up having a double bypass this week.

I need to lose weight, to get healthy. I don’t really care about looking good, but rather feeling good. I want to be around for my grandchildren someday, to set a good example for my kids so that they learn healthy habits, to feel like I should feel. So I joined a gym this week and started eating better several weeks ago. I’ve lost four pounds already; my short-term goal is 24 (to get back to 200 pounds), then to get down to 175. I probably should lose more from there but I don’t want to get ahead of myself.